OK. Where do I begin. I haven't posted in awhile. I am not going to apologize for that. For even though I haven't posted I have been going somewhere. My latest and greatest of lessons has been the hardest learned. It took an all out argument with my husband to open my eyes, turn on the light bulb, giving me a life realization and getting a fire lit under my lazy....bum, ceaster, rear-end.
Until tonight I have been humming and hawing about what it is that I want to be doing. I must tell you first about the things that have been stressing me out. First issue is not contributing to the family income. I have been contemplating what I can do to help bring income into the household. Second, I don't want to relinquish the care of my babies to strangers (just yet). Third, my husband has been spending so much time working. He needs the time to de-stress after work in order to not bring it home. I have to admit that I have been jealous about his time. (I am not saying that he is not needing some balance too but, I will get to that)
I have been trying to come up with ways to work from home. This way I could help with the income, and stay at home with the kids. Then the other night I had a dream. I was working in a hospital. I have toyed with the idea and Terry has suggest that I go to school for nursing (or whatever I want). I have been humming and hawing over this because I was not looking forward to the time in school.
So here I am humming and hawing, humming and hawing, hence the time I haven't written. Until tonight.
In Church today, the message was about building a firm Foundation. One of the points was that you have to know what it is that you want in order to rebuild that Foundation. Also, you have to know who you are. HM, yeah something that I have been grappling with don't you think?
This evening, Terry and I ended up having a heated argument about my jealousies. OK, the whole discussion need not be aired. But, I ended up having a light come on in the as we were finishing up. Yeah, I am not sure if it was odd timing or I really needed to be hit that hard with reality. I WOKE UP!!!
Later, I began to journal. Through that time I prayed that God will let everything lay out as I have it in my mind and on paper. So here are my new current goals.
1. I will open a day home to care for children in my house.- this takes care of my need to contribute and to take care of my own young ones.
2. I have been told that you are also given an allowance to get the necessary education for daycare workers through the current day home programs.- I would be taking ECE. I do believe this might be correspondence (have to check into it). This may even include getting my First Aid and CPR (again have to check into it.)
3. I am also going to start plugging away at the pre-requisites for entering the nursing program with Lethbridge Community College/University. I need to hold my First Aid and my CPR. I need all my vaccinations up to date (they should be all good with all the ones I took for Kenya). I also need some pre-College/University preparation classes- Biology, Chemistry, Math, and maybe English. All of which I should be able to take as night classes. One or Two nights a week sounds do able.
I am not in a huge rush to get it done right away but, HEEHEHEHE I HAVE DIRECTION!!!
I will have to work hard and balance time with kids and hubby. He'll have to be with the kids two nights a week. (But, he also won't have to work so many hours). And 15 minutes a night just for a snuggle and talk with each other. I am also going to ask for one date night a month.
I am not entirely sure if it'll all line up as nicely as this. This is where my beloved friends come in. CALLING ALL PRAYER WARRIORS!! CALLING ALL PRAYER WARRIORS!! Please pray that things will come together as I think they may in order that all will run fairly smoothly. I will keep you posted as I find out more.
One more little note: I was cleaning when I was praying. Low and behold I pick up a piece of paper. On that piece of paper there was dirt or er something that actually looked like a tiny foot print. And I was instantly reminded of the poem FOOTPRINTS. Which I happen to love. If you get a chance take a look and see what it says. That is just the time that I was having and God sent me a reminder.
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2 comments:
That is so very cool Babs...I'm so happy that you are feeling some direction!! I often have so many ideas about what I want to do that John has a hard time keeping up!!
I hope things DO go as smoothly as you hope...and if you do hit a few roadblocks that you wouldn't give up!!
Love ya,
T=)
praying for you...even if things don't line up quite like that, it's so awesome that you have a plan of attack in your head, and on paper. look at it often! hope everyone is doing well :)
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